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rubikscomplex) wrote2015-08-27 10:05 am
rubikscomplex) wrote2015-08-27 10:05 am
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[action] (cw: emotionally unhealthy dynamics, suicidal ideation.
rubikscomplex
2018-05-14 01:11 am (UTC)(link)
[House closes his eyes and runs his fingers through his hair, rubbing at the back of his neck. There's a quiet sigh, but he doesn't sound particularly judgmental when he speaks.]
You know how to pick 'em, Graham Cracker. I'd say I'm surprised Holmes didn't pick up anything when he was traveling with Lecter, but I don't exactly chat with the guy on the regular. So maybe he did pick up something and he's keeping it close to the vest? [One can hope. House isn't going to count on it, though.] Even if he hasn't, we're getting down to the wire, and the wifey got offed not long ago and hasn't come back. He's gotta be keeping a close eye on his buddy boy.
[Like House would be on Wilson if Amber woke up and promptly died again.]
So, we stay out of it. Fine. Doubt Lecter's gonna need to pull the strings. As long as Beckett keeps his trap shut, we're good.
You know how to pick 'em, Graham Cracker. I'd say I'm surprised Holmes didn't pick up anything when he was traveling with Lecter, but I don't exactly chat with the guy on the regular. So maybe he did pick up something and he's keeping it close to the vest? [One can hope. House isn't going to count on it, though.] Even if he hasn't, we're getting down to the wire, and the wifey got offed not long ago and hasn't come back. He's gotta be keeping a close eye on his buddy boy.
[Like House would be on Wilson if Amber woke up and promptly died again.]
So, we stay out of it. Fine. Doubt Lecter's gonna need to pull the strings. As long as Beckett keeps his trap shut, we're good.
[action] (cw: emotionally unhealthy dynamics, suicidal ideation.
ex_this_ismydesign36
2018-05-14 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ It was tempting to point out that Molly had been a good choice. But the truth was he had been the bad choice for her and he'd been selfish to let her make it. Will had never been cut out for a normal life, a normal family and he'd been fooling himself to think he could exist with one.
But he was simply grateful that the older man didn't appear disgusted with the weakness Will showed in this area. He believed that if House had been put off, he'd say so. ]
Hannibal is very good at hiding, especially when he can see a person's blind spot. Holmes has a huge one and I have no doubt Hannibal positioned himself right into it.
[ Reaching up, Will brushed his hand across his face, trying to chase off a headache. ]
I agree. We stay out of it, hope Beckett stays quiet. Though I expect he'd rather put me in his cross-hairs. I expect to have to sing for my supper, so to speak.
But he was simply grateful that the older man didn't appear disgusted with the weakness Will showed in this area. He believed that if House had been put off, he'd say so. ]
Hannibal is very good at hiding, especially when he can see a person's blind spot. Holmes has a huge one and I have no doubt Hannibal positioned himself right into it.
[ Reaching up, Will brushed his hand across his face, trying to chase off a headache. ]
I agree. We stay out of it, hope Beckett stays quiet. Though I expect he'd rather put me in his cross-hairs. I expect to have to sing for my supper, so to speak.
[action] (cw: emotionally unhealthy dynamics, suicidal ideation)
rubikscomplex
2018-05-14 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, he read me the riot act, too.
[There's more irritation in House's tone this time. He's not used to being beholden to people. In fact, House chooses brutal honesty most of the time to avoid this kind of situation. It's not a good place to be.]
He's staying quiet for now, and I haven't gotten any messages with the cryborg or Angelcakes yelling at me, so I assume he hasn't told them anything. Or at least not much. Not sure if he's plotting something, though.
[There's more irritation in House's tone this time. He's not used to being beholden to people. In fact, House chooses brutal honesty most of the time to avoid this kind of situation. It's not a good place to be.]
He's staying quiet for now, and I haven't gotten any messages with the cryborg or Angelcakes yelling at me, so I assume he hasn't told them anything. Or at least not much. Not sure if he's plotting something, though.
[action] (cw: emotionally unhealthy dynamics, suicidal ideation)
ex_this_ismydesign36
2018-05-15 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
Probably plotting. [ Will decided to go with the worst case scenario. ] Remind me to stay away from enclosed spaces alone with him.
[ He glanced over and couldn't help asking. ]
What was the subject of your riot act?
[ He glanced over and couldn't help asking. ]
What was the subject of your riot act?
Edited 2018-05-15 02:48 (UTC)
[action] (cw: emotionally unhealthy dynamics, suicidal ideation)
rubikscomplex
2018-05-15 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
The usual. He thinks I'm losing my humanity.
[Ha ha ha... that might have played a minor role in his little breakdown earlier. If Beckett had been right... but he's not. House is fairly certain of that.]
And he needs to protect me from that. Pretty sure the guy thinks I'm some kinda fellow vamp or whatever. That or he's real sweet on me.
[Ha ha ha... that might have played a minor role in his little breakdown earlier. If Beckett had been right... but he's not. House is fairly certain of that.]
And he needs to protect me from that. Pretty sure the guy thinks I'm some kinda fellow vamp or whatever. That or he's real sweet on me.
[action] (cw: emotionally unhealthy dynamics, suicidal)
ex_this_ismydesign36
2018-05-15 04:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Given the tenor of their earlier conversation, Will studied House's profile for a moment as he turned the words over and over in his head. ]
For what it's worth. [ He began. ] Despite how deeply Hannibal is in my mind, I don't believe I ever lost my humanity. [ Which was probably the first positive thing Will has said about himself in all these situations. House could take that for what it was worth to him. ]
Another victim of Hannibal's, his psychiatrist actually a woman named Bedelia, was talking with me once and she brought up what it meant to come across an injured bird. How for her, now, she felt only the urge to crush it. I know in myself, that my instinct is still to help it.
[ He looked over towards the shadows pensively for a moment. ]
I don't know if we can say I survived Hannibal, with my humanity intact, because we both know I didn't survive in the end. But you will get out of this, House and you will survive and your humanity is not in question. It goes too deep in you and you have people to guide you.
[ He was thinking of Wilson, Ecks, Ginger, Quark. There were others, but Will could be something of a jealous brat as well.
His lips twitched, and tilted his head, giving his friend a tired but sassy look out of the corner of his eye. ]
But I definitely believe he's sweet on you.
For what it's worth. [ He began. ] Despite how deeply Hannibal is in my mind, I don't believe I ever lost my humanity. [ Which was probably the first positive thing Will has said about himself in all these situations. House could take that for what it was worth to him. ]
Another victim of Hannibal's, his psychiatrist actually a woman named Bedelia, was talking with me once and she brought up what it meant to come across an injured bird. How for her, now, she felt only the urge to crush it. I know in myself, that my instinct is still to help it.
[ He looked over towards the shadows pensively for a moment. ]
I don't know if we can say I survived Hannibal, with my humanity intact, because we both know I didn't survive in the end. But you will get out of this, House and you will survive and your humanity is not in question. It goes too deep in you and you have people to guide you.
[ He was thinking of Wilson, Ecks, Ginger, Quark. There were others, but Will could be something of a jealous brat as well.
His lips twitched, and tilted his head, giving his friend a tired but sassy look out of the corner of his eye. ]
But I definitely believe he's sweet on you.
[action] (cw: emotionally unhealthy dynamics, suicidal)
rubikscomplex
2018-05-20 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[House thinks about the conversation he'd had with Hannibal before all this, asking him how to stop Will from trying to kill himself in the suit. He'd called Will Hannibal's shattered teacup and referred to himself as the broken bird. It's funny how metaphors come full circle.
It's easier to focus in on the last comment than any of the heavier ones. House sighs, mock-dramatic.]
At least now I know what it's like being a rock star. Groupies, man.
It's easier to focus in on the last comment than any of the heavier ones. House sighs, mock-dramatic.]
At least now I know what it's like being a rock star. Groupies, man.
[ The comment caused Will to chuckle softly, and though he didn't actually sing he did speak poetry in something resembling time to the rhythm. ]
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses, drivin' fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat'
[ He smirked then and leaned his head back against the wall. ]
Except you hate that kind of fawning attention. Not at first, I mean what person doesn't enjoying a good fawning, but eventually it gets intrusive, with no substance.
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses, drivin' fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat'
[ He smirked then and leaned his head back against the wall. ]
Except you hate that kind of fawning attention. Not at first, I mean what person doesn't enjoying a good fawning, but eventually it gets intrusive, with no substance.
Thank you for telling me what I feel. Where would I be without you? [Dead. Most certainly dead.
House flicks at some of the crumbs from his peanut butter cracker.]
I'm going back to sleep, unless you have any other earth-shattering revelations to share. [God he hopes Will doesn't. He's tapping into the reserve of emotional energy for today, and he's going to want to have nothing to do with anyone tomorrow, probably, to recharge.]
House flicks at some of the crumbs from his peanut butter cracker.]
I'm going back to sleep, unless you have any other earth-shattering revelations to share. [God he hopes Will doesn't. He's tapping into the reserve of emotional energy for today, and he's going to want to have nothing to do with anyone tomorrow, probably, to recharge.]
I'm told I do a good Jiminy Cricket. [ There was no point raising to the sharp response. He'd courted it with being too invasive in one conversation.
Instead, he closed his eyes with his head tipped back. It was tempting to make some snarkish stereotypical psychoanalytical comment, but Will really didn't feel the need to get the last word in with House.
He'd overstepped. He'd accept his punishment. ]
Instead, he closed his eyes with his head tipped back. It was tempting to make some snarkish stereotypical psychoanalytical comment, but Will really didn't feel the need to get the last word in with House.
He'd overstepped. He'd accept his punishment. ]
Morning 364 - Hand Written Note cw: Unhealthy relationships
ex_this_ismydesign36
2018-05-26 01:28 pm (UTC)(link)
House,
By now you've noticed...
I know you're going to be annoyed...
I need to ...
I should have seen this coming. Between what happened in the pit, after the pit and then in the cells, I should have anticipated that Hannibal would not stand for it, and I should have never promised I could stay.
I'm going after him, he left me which way he was headed. I'm concerned about this hypnosis idea of his, and I promised Beckett that ... well, let's just say Enoch was one of the names Beckett was yelling at me about.
We both knew this was inevitable, you two are too much alike in the ways that matter. Or in other words you're both stubborn alpha types. I will try to keep him focused on Miller and keep both of us away from you, Wilson and anyone else that could become collateral damage.
Before you start, yes I narced you out to Wilson, Ecks, Rhys, Ginger and Beckett. They know I've left and that I'm expecting them to keep you on your no death streak. Double digits are not something to aspire too, House.
Good luck and stay warm.
-Will
[ As notes go it probably reads as brief, especially given the depths of what could be said. But words were never their strong suit.
Instead, the note is left leaning against the plush Winston, who has also been left behind. The Winston plush probably says everything the note doesn't. ]
I should have seen this coming. Between what happened in the pit, after the pit and then in the cells, I should have anticipated that Hannibal would not stand for it, and I should have never promised I could stay.
I'm going after him, he left me which way he was headed. I'm concerned about this hypnosis idea of his, and I promised Beckett that ... well, let's just say Enoch was one of the names Beckett was yelling at me about.
We both knew this was inevitable, you two are too much alike in the ways that matter. Or in other words you're both stubborn alpha types. I will try to keep him focused on Miller and keep both of us away from you, Wilson and anyone else that could become collateral damage.
Before you start, yes I narced you out to Wilson, Ecks, Rhys, Ginger and Beckett. They know I've left and that I'm expecting them to keep you on your no death streak. Double digits are not something to aspire too, House.
Good luck and stay warm.
-Will
[ As notes go it probably reads as brief, especially given the depths of what could be said. But words were never their strong suit.
Instead, the note is left leaning against the plush Winston, who has also been left behind. The Winston plush probably says everything the note doesn't. ]
[When House sees the note, sees the plush, sees the empty spaces where Hannibal and Will had been, he's angry. Angry enough to rip up the damn note in a fit of pique. He feels betrayed, frustrated. Will isn't supposed to leave. He said he'd stay. He said he'd stay! And the selfish part of House that's ever lurking seriously considers just chucking Winston in a corner and letting Eve's spiders pick it up.
But a few minutes pass, and then a few minutes more while he's sulking and the world doesn't end. Things are marginally worse today than they were the day before. A cannabis pill eases him, has him scowling and stroking the Winston plush as opposed to plotting its demise. He lets Wilson and Ecks get ready for the day and considers.
The group was at a size that had left House feeling antsy, anyway, and he could read the discomfort rolling off of Wilson in waves, as well. He's not sure what to make of that other than his friend sensing some of the crazy that follows Will's every move and lightly wafts from Hannibal's direction. Wilson's always been more perceptive than most people give him credit for, even House sometimes. Ecks is Ecks. She's strange, but unobtrusive and definitely not crazy, just naive. And a kid. So.
They can use this. Will and Hannibal are both intelligent and willing to do things that other people would find... unpalatable. Spreading that out means they get more done. House has someone reliable he can call on and coordinate with if he has a need for remote experiments. Well... reliable for now. He'll need to keep checking in with Will, providing him a sanity check. It's really about keeping him efficient, nothing to do with attachment or emotions. Not in the least.
House sends a message to Will's tablet later that afternoon when they pause for a break and he has time to mull over his words. They need to be strategic about this.]
could you have been more melodramatic?
jesus
i'm assuming your note doesn't mean you're gonna try to off lecter
what with the whole three-body pile-up we had the last time he was loose for a day after dying
i'm not the one who needs luck
you are
also help
i'm heading to the elementary school with ecks to get wilson shadownet
i'll see if we can get a few more copies to spread around so you don't have to keep using lecter's tablet
keep me updated on where you are and what you're up to
it'll be handy if we need to coordinate for any experiments
thinking we'll head down to miller's place to check if there's any response in his house to the ocean eye app
also
jokes on you
i don't even talk to hale
and i'm planning to get winston hooked on drugs, booze, and hookers while you're gone
just fyi
your dog's going bad to the bone
[The message is accompanied by a photo of plushie Winston. House has set him up so that there is a cigarette leaning against him, a pill bottle and wine glass by his side. He's set on top of the knock off Playboy magazine cover.]
But a few minutes pass, and then a few minutes more while he's sulking and the world doesn't end. Things are marginally worse today than they were the day before. A cannabis pill eases him, has him scowling and stroking the Winston plush as opposed to plotting its demise. He lets Wilson and Ecks get ready for the day and considers.
The group was at a size that had left House feeling antsy, anyway, and he could read the discomfort rolling off of Wilson in waves, as well. He's not sure what to make of that other than his friend sensing some of the crazy that follows Will's every move and lightly wafts from Hannibal's direction. Wilson's always been more perceptive than most people give him credit for, even House sometimes. Ecks is Ecks. She's strange, but unobtrusive and definitely not crazy, just naive. And a kid. So.
They can use this. Will and Hannibal are both intelligent and willing to do things that other people would find... unpalatable. Spreading that out means they get more done. House has someone reliable he can call on and coordinate with if he has a need for remote experiments. Well... reliable for now. He'll need to keep checking in with Will, providing him a sanity check. It's really about keeping him efficient, nothing to do with attachment or emotions. Not in the least.
House sends a message to Will's tablet later that afternoon when they pause for a break and he has time to mull over his words. They need to be strategic about this.]
could you have been more melodramatic?
jesus
i'm assuming your note doesn't mean you're gonna try to off lecter
what with the whole three-body pile-up we had the last time he was loose for a day after dying
i'm not the one who needs luck
you are
also help
i'm heading to the elementary school with ecks to get wilson shadownet
i'll see if we can get a few more copies to spread around so you don't have to keep using lecter's tablet
keep me updated on where you are and what you're up to
it'll be handy if we need to coordinate for any experiments
thinking we'll head down to miller's place to check if there's any response in his house to the ocean eye app
also
jokes on you
i don't even talk to hale
and i'm planning to get winston hooked on drugs, booze, and hookers while you're gone
just fyi
your dog's going bad to the bone
[The message is accompanied by a photo of plushie Winston. House has set him up so that there is a cigarette leaning against him, a pill bottle and wine glass by his side. He's set on top of the knock off Playboy magazine cover.]
Edited 2018-05-26 17:09 (UTC)
[ Regretfully it's going to be awhile before he can appreciate the corruption of his plush dog.
But well played, sir. Well played. ]
But well played, sir. Well played. ]
[Hannibal is gone. Left behind is a note, a sheet of yellow legal paper folded in half, with "House" written on the outside in marker, the handwriting elegant. Inside, in the same elegant handwriting, is written merely this.]
I have not forgotten the meal I owe you.
[There is no signature, but really, does there need to be?]
I have not forgotten the meal I owe you.
[There is no signature, but really, does there need to be?]
[Neither the note from Will, nor this one are welcome. House decides to ignore this one for a while, though, at least until the evening when he still hasn't heard from Will, and he can taste iron at the back of his throat.]
did graham make it over to you?
he left this morning
haven't heard from him
have heard from the admin
are you tasting blood in your throat?
did graham make it over to you?
he left this morning
haven't heard from him
have heard from the admin
are you tasting blood in your throat?
[When Will didn't show up by lock down, Hannibal ate the meal he had prepared for the both of them in slow silence. He knew that Will might choose to stay with House, and had accepted it, but he still felt his friend's absence like an ache of emptiness in his chest. It was almost strong enough to distract him from the taste of blood in the back of his throat.
Almost.
He was preparing to sleep alone when House's message arrived. He read it, and frowned.
Something went wrong.]
Will is not here. I thought he stayed with you. I assume that is not the case.
I have received the message from the admin. And yes, I am tasting blood in my throat. I assume both are true of you as well.
Almost.
He was preparing to sleep alone when House's message arrived. He read it, and frowned.
Something went wrong.]
Will is not here. I thought he stayed with you. I assume that is not the case.
I have received the message from the admin. And yes, I am tasting blood in my throat. I assume both are true of you as well.
[That's... concerning. Also mildly flattering that Hannibal thinks Will would choose him.]
not unless he's found new life as the invisible man
messaged him this afternoon
haven't heard anything
got the admin's message and tasting the blood, yeah
we're at a year here tomorrow for the earliest arrivals
watch out for anyone devolving into saying "hello world"
and keep an eye on the obits, i guess
[Hell. If Will went off and got himself killed by an anomaly...]
not unless he's found new life as the invisible man
messaged him this afternoon
haven't heard anything
got the admin's message and tasting the blood, yeah
we're at a year here tomorrow for the earliest arrivals
watch out for anyone devolving into saying "hello world"
and keep an eye on the obits, i guess
[Hell. If Will went off and got himself killed by an anomaly...]
You will doubtless be tempted to blame me if Will's name does appear on the obituaries. I would advise you to consider that whatever Will did, it was his choice.
As for devolving, I'm not certain I understand your reference.
As for devolving, I'm not certain I understand your reference.
[On his side of the tablet, House frowns and rolls his eyes.]
i'm thinking more anomaly
but thanks for the reassurances
back months ago
maybe a month or two after i first got here
we had a couple of messages from a previous session turn up on the network
there were maybe five people
three messages
they started out talking normally to each other
then they started to lose coherence
by the third message
all any of them were posting was "hello"
like the standard baby's first computer program "hello world" kinda crap
i'm thinking more anomaly
but thanks for the reassurances
back months ago
maybe a month or two after i first got here
we had a couple of messages from a previous session turn up on the network
there were maybe five people
three messages
they started out talking normally to each other
then they started to lose coherence
by the third message
all any of them were posting was "hello"
like the standard baby's first computer program "hello world" kinda crap
You misunderstand. I was thinking anomaly as well. You may think that Will would not have encountered an anomaly, or whatever else may have detained him, had he not been following me. Again, it was his choice.
[Ah. Technology is not Hannibal's strong suit, but this makes sense.]
What happened to those who devolved?
[Ah. Technology is not Hannibal's strong suit, but this makes sense.]
What happened to those who devolved?
oh, pls
i'm a selfish, petty bastard
i'm not that kinda petty
people die here all the time
[And he's going to be incredibly upset if Will is dead, but he's logical enough to assign the blame where it's due.]
the admin terminated the session
presumably they're in the dataghost collective
i'm a selfish, petty bastard
i'm not that kinda petty
people die here all the time
[And he's going to be incredibly upset if Will is dead, but he's logical enough to assign the blame where it's due.]
the admin terminated the session
presumably they're in the dataghost collective
Edited 2018-05-28 03:20 (UTC)
Terminated the session. As in, killed those involved?
seems like it
we didn't get a definitive answer
we don't most of the time
we didn't get a definitive answer
we don't most of the time
if there is
i dunno what it is
but like i said
we're coming up on our anniversary here
and we were never supposed to go this long
i dunno what it is
but like i said
we're coming up on our anniversary here
and we were never supposed to go this long
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