[House isn't in a great mood, but what else is new? They know their plan will probably work, it's just going to take more time than he would have liked. Still, whatever. There are other experiments to run while they wait this out.]
no closest bet is the vet i can reach 161 tomorrow night we can do these experiments sooner rather than later if you come with me it's only a couple of days
[There is a delay before he answers, spent considering the option. It would mean a longer wait to meet up with Clint, but... Maybe a longer wait would allow time to see if Al will revive before they have to talk too deeply on that. Even if these prospective experiments are going to be unpleasant enough on their own.]
alright probably better to get this over with sooner rather than later ill let him know
doctor hotstud ive gotta ask how eager do you really think i am to go testing if im just a fake pile of nanomachines masquerading as a person im doing this because i cant stand the possibility being there without knowing not because im all excited to put my sense of self through the woodchipper im going to do it anyway i basically have to at this point
depends who you think can handle it ill probably tell sherlock and watson since they brought it up first and one of the ideas was theirs but if fake is the answer some people would probably just shut down hell can you imagine telling the newbies that welcome to hell your life is a lie and were probably all fucked anyway i cant
no their life isn't a lie they're just a copy i know you've got "issues" with that i'm the only me that's relevant in the present people need to get over themselves if they think anything beyond that that matters
[He might be playing up the bravado here. But the fact that he's relentlessly hopeless and miserable might tell Davesprite something.]
if thats all that matters then why are you risking your health and mine to test it i could get tetanus you could get whatever happens when a human injects glowy sprite blood into their veins youre basing your whole plan of whether youll tell anyone on whether it affects my willingness to do the tests in the first place im not stupid house ive also got three years experience being the fake dave so i know what im talking about with this
it matters more than you want to let yourself admit
[A short pause.]
im not going to say to bare your secret inner heart to me because weve already established that you like to keep closed off and youll go full acid washed dickhole to keep it that way but i am saying that i understand the looming existential crisis better than the majority youre going to find here and theres no point in me pretending otherwise when im about to go through all this to test it with you even knowing its probably going to fuck me up worse about it but im thinking about this and even if i do turn out fake i dont think ill stop trying to figure this place out its going to fucking suck but everything sucks already and its not like dying has any meaning around here so what im saying is if the answer is the shitty one you can talk to me about it im not going to force you because i know i cant and im not going to do the gentle nagging thing the local dad task force likes to bust out im just putting it on the table where you can see it and then fucking off so you can do what you want with it with the promise im not gonna spill to other people because thats a dick move and defeats the purpose
anyway we can sort out who to tell when we know the answer ill see you tomorrow
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rubikscomplex) wrote2015-08-27 10:05 am
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closest bet is the vet
i can reach 161 tomorrow night
we can do these experiments sooner rather than later if you come with me
it's only a couple of days
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alright
probably better to get this over with sooner rather than later
ill let him know
[Another pause, and then:]
what are you going to do if i turn out fake
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i don't think we're getting out of here, kid
i'm working because there's nothing else to do
that doesn't change if we're not real
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[What else is he even supposed to say?]
i take it that means you wont spread it around much either
am i right
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that's what they call me back home
does my answer have any bearing on your willingness to conduct these experiments?
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how eager do you really think i am to go testing if im just a fake pile of nanomachines masquerading as a person
im doing this because i cant stand the possibility being there without knowing
not because im all excited to put my sense of self through the woodchipper
im going to do it anyway
i basically have to at this point
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that's why i asked
if it's relevant
i'll share it
if it's not
i won't
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ill probably tell sherlock and watson since they brought it up first and one of the ideas was theirs
but if fake is the answer some people would probably just shut down
hell can you imagine telling the newbies that
welcome to hell your life is a lie and were probably all fucked anyway
i cant
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their life isn't a lie
they're just a copy
i know you've got "issues" with that
i'm the only me that's relevant in the present
people need to get over themselves if they think anything beyond that that matters
[He might be playing up the bravado here. But the fact that he's relentlessly hopeless and miserable might tell Davesprite something.]
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i could get tetanus
you could get whatever happens when a human injects glowy sprite blood into their veins
youre basing your whole plan of whether youll tell anyone on whether it affects my willingness to do the tests in the first place
im not stupid house
ive also got three years experience being the fake dave so i know what im talking about with this
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cw: alluding to suicidal ideation
[A short pause.]
im not going to say to bare your secret inner heart to me
because weve already established that you like to keep closed off and youll go full acid washed dickhole to keep it that way
but i am saying that i understand the looming existential crisis better than the majority youre going to find here
and theres no point in me pretending otherwise when im about to go through all this to test it with you even knowing its probably going to fuck me up worse about it
but im thinking about this
and even if i do turn out fake i dont think ill stop trying to figure this place out
its going to fucking suck but everything sucks already and its not like dying has any meaning around here
so what im saying is
if the answer is the shitty one
you can talk to me about it
im not going to force you because i know i cant
and im not going to do the gentle nagging thing the local dad task force likes to bust out
im just putting it on the table where you can see it and then fucking off so you can do what you want with it
with the promise im not gonna spill to other people because thats a dick move and defeats the purpose
anyway
we can sort out who to tell when we know the answer
ill see you tomorrow
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see you tomorrow
[House disconnects from the conversation.]
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